pmsing...
wah think im pmsing again..this sucks..my good friend said i shldnt let out everything here..thats so true la..so i shall go bug him more abt my problems ok :p ahh well..got back my results for ballet today..got a distinction..yay!! 85/100 but was last in class la..wah a bit sad la but i know my standard..oh well..wasnt last last year but the not so good ones all dropped ballet. well the scores range from me..to 95..not bad la..
was kinda pissed today..guessing its cuz of pms but i dunno...ever since coming to jc ive been feeling so much more frustration and sadness...ij was a lot more happy and fun, with no worries in the world..maybe im experiening more of the real world? i duno. wah i know this sounds kinda bad..today was the first time i ever had to force a laugh..or rather laughs..feeling so pissed today la.. during phy and maths..the jokes made were funny..really..on any other day i would hav laughed till i had tears but was really bad today la..saw and heard pple laughing and then i thought to myself..janice why arent u laughing? then thats when i forced myself to laugh..usually it;ll come naturally la..but sigh..
sometimes i think i pity myself too much..always feeling sorry over myself..i hate that la..and theres so many more pple out there who r feeling even worst..whose lives r filled with so much more sadness and complication..all im feeling is jus minimal..(tends to 0) exam results r coming..guess i dont really care much..there will always be something that will suit u next time..its not the end of the world.
sometimes pple think that where they stand is great..i guess they hav a right to be ,high up where they r but jus wish that they would be a bit more humble la..stop boasting that ur view from where u are is great..jus sink to a lower level and u'll realise how much higher u can go..dont try to put pple in their place, put urs in the right place first..sometimes i rather jus stay at a low level where its so stable and, where u can see how the higher pple r so vulnerable and susecptable(dunno how to spell) to wind climate changes..dont think any will understand this paragraph but if u do, theyll be so great.well..i shld stop feeling sorry for myself and jus go sleep..goodnight and thanks to my 4yr net friend haha for letting me realise my world is wonderful.. :)
was kinda pissed today..guessing its cuz of pms but i dunno...ever since coming to jc ive been feeling so much more frustration and sadness...ij was a lot more happy and fun, with no worries in the world..maybe im experiening more of the real world? i duno. wah i know this sounds kinda bad..today was the first time i ever had to force a laugh..or rather laughs..feeling so pissed today la.. during phy and maths..the jokes made were funny..really..on any other day i would hav laughed till i had tears but was really bad today la..saw and heard pple laughing and then i thought to myself..janice why arent u laughing? then thats when i forced myself to laugh..usually it;ll come naturally la..but sigh..
sometimes i think i pity myself too much..always feeling sorry over myself..i hate that la..and theres so many more pple out there who r feeling even worst..whose lives r filled with so much more sadness and complication..all im feeling is jus minimal..(tends to 0) exam results r coming..guess i dont really care much..there will always be something that will suit u next time..its not the end of the world.
sometimes pple think that where they stand is great..i guess they hav a right to be ,high up where they r but jus wish that they would be a bit more humble la..stop boasting that ur view from where u are is great..jus sink to a lower level and u'll realise how much higher u can go..dont try to put pple in their place, put urs in the right place first..sometimes i rather jus stay at a low level where its so stable and, where u can see how the higher pple r so vulnerable and susecptable(dunno how to spell) to wind climate changes..dont think any will understand this paragraph but if u do, theyll be so great.well..i shld stop feeling sorry for myself and jus go sleep..goodnight and thanks to my 4yr net friend haha for letting me realise my world is wonderful.. :)
posted by jan @ 1:12 AM
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