the sixth sense
got a song stuck on replay...craig david im sorry i dont love u no more...love it!! haha must be the catchy tune yet the song is so sad. my comp is back! yay!! but the first time it started up, it was sooo darn slow la every command took ages to be carried out. even shutting it down took ages. then the next round the internet didnt work. then now its working...for now. wonder if the repair man did smth bad to it so tt it'll be sent for repair again.
sometimes i wonder if i am expecting too much, whether what i wish for is reasonable. whether what i expect is well,.. over the top. maybe ive just watched too much tv and made my judgement be warped and be influenced by the media. i dont know. guess these things will be learnt in time. but will this time be soon? how do u know what is right or wrong? isnt a lot of things influenced by media? like giving birth to how many children? could it be tt media actually made us think we shld hav 2.4 children? tts why most pple want abt 2-3 children?
sometimes i wonder what love really is. to me, true love doesnt play with ur heart, it doesnt pull at ur heart strings to make u do smth tt u totally object to. and love shldnt hurt when its not supposed to. perhaps to me this love can only be found from God and within ur family, maybe tts when the commitment is there and u r joined by creation or blood and nth shld ever pull u apart. yet with love comes sacrifices like giving tt piece tender chicken to ur loved one...which i dont think ive been making..and tt shldnt hurt but shld make u happy because u did it because u knew tt person wld enjoy it. mybe ive been doing this all wrong. maybe this insecurity and lack of love comes from the commitment which cld break any time and cannot be called a commitment. then again how can one say tt he knows what love really is? what makes u think love isnt jus a state of mind? how can u weigh the untangible?
anyway played "guess who" today. super fun la. :) played with daner(my partner) and mel and yongwen(opposition!!) though daner and i lost quite a few times since we started first quite a lot haha i realised there may actually be such a thing as women's intuition. haha cuz we managed to guess the person even though there were abt 5-7 pple left to choose from. dont know how we managed to do it. but the few times we guessed the right one was quite freaky. and u guys must be thinking, what?? she said gals only..but the next piece of evidence is when simone(partner) played against smelly medicine and ervin.. we too managed to pon them! guessed the specific person from abt 4-5 pple again!! u just get a feeling tt its tt person and it stands out from the rest...maybe the sixth sense really does exist in this world! so cool la.well im not saying guys definitely dont have such "powers" but maybe theres jus more in gals wahaha
honestly ive always been fascinated by sixth sense and telekinetism (if theres such a word) and psychics but i know i shldnt because it might be a little contradicting to my faith just as tarot cards and ouija boards ( not too sure abt tt though) but some might see it as the gift of prophecy. k haha i actually wrote more stuff below but decided to delete it due to obvious reasons ( cant tell everyone) :D shh...
went to swim today cuz im feeling really FAT! sigh i have put on abt 5kg since the start of this yr and it is a lot! i guess after quitting ballet, i felt i could grow fatter and need not maintain my wt and i was soo wrong now no more ballet, pe....sigh how m i gonna lose wt? yep exercise...but with the a;s coming i doubt i hav time for tt. sadly, my friends havent replied my sms/ answered my calls. wonder if we r going out tmr. and i was looking forward to it!!
somehow the word "soon" seems like a long time..seems like its never gonna come, seems so far away. how u make me wait for everything when u urself cant, amazes me. patience jan..sigh
anyway jus gonna leave all u eager beaver fans out there who read every single word, (thank you!!) with this, "happiness is not given by others, it is smth u find within" and tt is smth i hav known long ago. notice i said known..but knowing and carrying it out r 2 diff things. im on my way there :) what a long "esss-say" as kk dren says
sometimes i wonder if i am expecting too much, whether what i wish for is reasonable. whether what i expect is well,.. over the top. maybe ive just watched too much tv and made my judgement be warped and be influenced by the media. i dont know. guess these things will be learnt in time. but will this time be soon? how do u know what is right or wrong? isnt a lot of things influenced by media? like giving birth to how many children? could it be tt media actually made us think we shld hav 2.4 children? tts why most pple want abt 2-3 children?
sometimes i wonder what love really is. to me, true love doesnt play with ur heart, it doesnt pull at ur heart strings to make u do smth tt u totally object to. and love shldnt hurt when its not supposed to. perhaps to me this love can only be found from God and within ur family, maybe tts when the commitment is there and u r joined by creation or blood and nth shld ever pull u apart. yet with love comes sacrifices like giving tt piece tender chicken to ur loved one...which i dont think ive been making..and tt shldnt hurt but shld make u happy because u did it because u knew tt person wld enjoy it. mybe ive been doing this all wrong. maybe this insecurity and lack of love comes from the commitment which cld break any time and cannot be called a commitment. then again how can one say tt he knows what love really is? what makes u think love isnt jus a state of mind? how can u weigh the untangible?
anyway played "guess who" today. super fun la. :) played with daner(my partner) and mel and yongwen(opposition!!) though daner and i lost quite a few times since we started first quite a lot haha i realised there may actually be such a thing as women's intuition. haha cuz we managed to guess the person even though there were abt 5-7 pple left to choose from. dont know how we managed to do it. but the few times we guessed the right one was quite freaky. and u guys must be thinking, what?? she said gals only..but the next piece of evidence is when simone(partner) played against smelly medicine and ervin.. we too managed to pon them! guessed the specific person from abt 4-5 pple again!! u just get a feeling tt its tt person and it stands out from the rest...maybe the sixth sense really does exist in this world! so cool la.well im not saying guys definitely dont have such "powers" but maybe theres jus more in gals wahaha
honestly ive always been fascinated by sixth sense and telekinetism (if theres such a word) and psychics but i know i shldnt because it might be a little contradicting to my faith just as tarot cards and ouija boards ( not too sure abt tt though) but some might see it as the gift of prophecy. k haha i actually wrote more stuff below but decided to delete it due to obvious reasons ( cant tell everyone) :D shh...
went to swim today cuz im feeling really FAT! sigh i have put on abt 5kg since the start of this yr and it is a lot! i guess after quitting ballet, i felt i could grow fatter and need not maintain my wt and i was soo wrong now no more ballet, pe....sigh how m i gonna lose wt? yep exercise...but with the a;s coming i doubt i hav time for tt. sadly, my friends havent replied my sms/ answered my calls. wonder if we r going out tmr. and i was looking forward to it!!
somehow the word "soon" seems like a long time..seems like its never gonna come, seems so far away. how u make me wait for everything when u urself cant, amazes me. patience jan..sigh
anyway jus gonna leave all u eager beaver fans out there who read every single word, (thank you!!) with this, "happiness is not given by others, it is smth u find within" and tt is smth i hav known long ago. notice i said known..but knowing and carrying it out r 2 diff things. im on my way there :) what a long "esss-say" as kk dren says
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