God's gift (free will)

I watched as she stood by the open window
Silent and staring at the night but not really looking
Letting the wind sweep past her face and body
Sending a chill through her spine
She stood slowly taking in air
Then stopped breathing for a while till she noticed that it hurt
Thoughts of death seemed to please her for the moment
As the wind whipped past her just like how it would be if she fell
She closed her eyes and enjoyed the moment she would be free
Free from this painful world which had hurt her once again.

Pen knife held tightly in her hand like a python ready to strike
Thoughts of the pain and blood flooded her mind but nothing would hurt like "it"
"I'm too young for this" she thought
"Stupid stupid stupid!" she scolded herself repeatedly
Then she turned her eyes to me and pleaded for a hurried end

I longed to take her in my arms and hold her and tell her everything would be alright
To give her the love and comfort she needed
To kill the monster that had built up in her over time that ate her away unknowingly
But it was her choice
To come to me or to seek my fallen friend.

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Every now and then
We find a special friend
who never lets us down...

Who understands it all
reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend i have found...

I know you can't stay
a part of you will never ever go away
your heart will stay.....

I'll make a wish for you,
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
if you lose your way,
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.
you're right...just kill me la