falling to the dark side

im gonna fall right into the new yr..dive into my books and start studying like mad..yeap..no more fooling arnd no more msning (try la) no more tv (ouch tt';ll be hard) and no more everything..falling falling..falling from grace
i hardly see u i hardly hear ur voice i dont understand u...i dont want to anymore...im tired im sick im confused...please let me go...

pain...all in vain...wish i was slain
take me away from here...back to everything tt was dear...dont u ever be near
what made u think we could connect...perhaps it was jus an act...something abt u, u jus lacked
dont need u to be my knight...with all ur glory and might...jus leave from my sight
(how ironic..gals always asking to be taken away by their knight to some place beautiful but not me...well,not now...)
sigh feeling damn sian on new yrs day...sian... yes yes ah lian word maybe but cant think of a proper eng word tt could say it ( tired? bored? mm maybe fed up with everything)
okok new yr resolution...be early for sch/meetings/anything...hah! like tt will happen..and also to be a bad gal...yea. bad..m i sick of being a gd gal/goody 2 shoes? maybe..
How to be a bad gal
1. be skinny (oh oh hard to achieve)
2. be bitchy
3. act like im the queen of the world ( jus like the white witch...)
4. mm i dunno...darn i need help

ever felt like ure faking what ure feeling? faking tt ure all happy and delighted? feeling tt right now..im such a pretender..sian...yes im sorry..im taking things for granted too...
what an ugly post to read...bitchy side of me...aaron pls dont be freaked out...dont wanna see food falling fr ur mouth again..tt was damn funny ( sorry didnt mean to laugh)
maybe maybe im jus cranky and sleepy...(yes i do get giggly when sleepy, laughing after each line, but not now)
we;re from different worlds..u stay in urs i stay in mine...yep tt makes the worlds ( yes worlds...urs and mine) go arnd
u walked outta my world...and u wanna come back in?
kinda lost motivation to study now..study for?? to do well in the business world? im not so sure..even a failure in sch can make it big so...?
argh y do i oppose everything that u say? so confused..
well..at least someone else is feeling sad on new yr's day...thanks B.. :/... :) well u may not be feeling sad..but ur nick sure comforts me...a lil..haha
well...will be back wearing my goody 2 shoes by tmr..maybe i am jus tired..night night
oh yes..im scared abt this yr..dont know how it will be like...
mistakes made should be learnt..why m i letting history repeat itself? ...addiction..
foul side of me release me from ur clutches...(then there'll be the imbalance) jan...go slp...
kk bye bloggie...this is prob my most terrible post..on new yr's day...oh dear not a gd way to start the yr