wow im finally back again phew...cant stand the workload man..got tons of projects to do 2 essays i have not started on and tests coming up...urgh how sucky is that?..see im back here jus to grumble and grumble..haha no need to read la...anyway i guess i feel more relaxed and carefree somewhat recently (gosh im contradicting myself) yeah..no longer need to worry whats going on, whether he likes me, whether he thinks abt me, whether im doing things correctly, whether im treating him right...yup i suppose its good and i'll hav more time to concentrate on studies but there will be days when i think i shouldnt hav let it slip by me so easily..jus letting it go like that without much of a fight..but then again i did give it up after a while cuz i had a feeling it wouldnt work..i had tried to keep it going, all in vain i guess, no point carrying on if ur heart's not in it...but since he's happy now then im happy too..he is happy right?.. now suan him a lot more wahaha im so mean..hmm maybe i shouldnt..NAH... haha hope to post soon..