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well today was a good day...actually good and bad la...extremes man..hai.. morning there was thanksgiving mass in chij woot pon sch to go for it..but felt like my close friends werent there...didnt sit with them cuz was late going in and didnt see them till the last minute.there was a reception after tt and ate a lot wahaha the sandwiches went super fast k!! lol 9.30 rushed back to sch..couldnt find mr michael tan so jus went for lecture. later on, met him and he was like chiding me for not seeking permission to go back. so he was gonna give me detention and i was ok ...ok ..anything he says jus nod head and say ok..wah feeling damn numb... but in the end he jus let me off and didnt need to go for detention yay :P later on had pe!! wah ultra fun!! haha played netball with the class woot i scored 2 goals whee :D haha but both like almost cannot go in but did.. yay ooo mel ure not bad as a defender haha hanx was so funny when he tried to shoot and shoot but the ball always bounced off the rim and he caught it again and again...lol :D finally he scored!! yeah
anyway damn pissed with someone...ms lim is right..we shldnt bottle up stuff in ourselves cuz its jus gonna eat u away bit by bit till one day u cant take it anymore and u explode!!! haiya but yet if i tell tt person, it's gonna be so mean..really hate hurting pple... but it could jus be pms haha..dunno whats going on.sometimes i jus feel lik screaming at a person im pissed with but then i realise tt hey theres really no point in screaming cuz i may be in the wrong too and its gonna be so weird when things r patched up...realised tt i sometimes get really pissed with a person and i jus hate and loathe tt person inside, or i tell close friends, till one day(not long after) it disappears and i become closer to tt person..i wonder is it because what i saw before ticked me off but i got used to it? or maybe tt person changed? or maybe i jus choose to ignore tt side of the person...whatever it is ..jus so pissed...and very very confused now....like i said ..just feels numb....
now with the class biz...haiya damn childish la..jus end it ok.. like everyone has their faults cuz no one is perfect.. so jus look at the plank in ur eye before u scrutinise ur friend's one...seriously...i believe BOTH of u hav some faults tt need to be attended to and if u dont want to change tt then leave it be, maybe some day u will realise it. or maybe u wont. jus admit we r all wrong ok? ...and tt includes me... sigh..
as eug says...blogs r a place to let out emotions..so if i piss anyone off, im sorry... hmm didnt u say its a waste of time to write abt events? then dont u do it too sometimes? hai... this entry's not really addressed to anyone but myself just some reflection( talking to myself haha) except the para jus above
argh some major and minor issues r really starting to get to me... whatever it is..its better to stay numb now than do something and regret it later...